I need myself now...

That's right. Sometimes, I need time to write for myself and, more importantly, talk to myself. It's always tough to leave things you love, I still look at how my room was when I was in Bhopal, and scroll some images just to feel that moment. 

However, this time I learned something called staying silent knowing what's happening around. 

This helped me get over something or say someone without any closures. And the bigger truth is - they didn't realise that we already parted. Or maybe they know. 

Letting people who you love go is doing something harsh to yourself but then you realise, it was just you who tried to hold things, and that's all what makes it easy to let go. 

Manier times I felt that I fell in love, but again, I realised, I never did. 

Love makes you a blind believer, it gives you the courage to think of going beyond to just be with the person you love, to achieve something you love or to live what you love. 

But when you fail, it feels like nothing is possible, you become cold-hearted and create boundaries. 

Ending with something very personal I understood this year. People are good, it's just their thinking that makes them good or bad for us. Because, no matter how much you respect someone, if you can't respect the ones who love you, then you should completely put yourself back. There's no point in entertaining anyone in your life, given they believe they are important to you. 

This all is coming because recently I just got completely switched off. I detached myself from the people around me. Like, okay, this is fine. They don't deserve my energy. 

I am at peace now...

Sometimes, it's important to not show your love or care intentionally, even if you do, and you want to do it, because it's natural. But when you control your emotions, and say to yourself, "doesn't matter", that's what makes your inner self strong and capable enough to make some harsh decisions in life, how right or wrong they are, that comes from your intelligence and intuition only.