WHEN YOUR LIFE IS A SARCASM

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Rarely do I come to this place to spill out everything inside me. Don't remember the exact date, yet it's been months since I wrote something over here. Maybe I wasn't considering myself to express or to think about myself. 
When I sit by myself, I either try to fix things or just let go of them. A lot of mess is happening in life, nothing that I feel will finally go good, goes the way. Maybe I am not manifesting or I have stopped believing in myself. 
I do believe everything will be alright, what is lacking behind is the urge to do something to see the magic happening. It's nothing like I am suffering from something or what, it's just, that I am not feeling okay with how things are happening. It usually happens in two cases, one is when you give your best and don't get the results and the second is when you want the things to happen themselves to you, and which is just getting happy building castles in the air. 
I have somewhere stuck between the two. Neither I am able to cross the road, nor able to hold myself to the place where I am standing. 
Wouldn't it be a joke if I won't call my life sarcasm? Amidst too many things happening in life, how does it feel to take a boy for an ideal date, and ended up just roaming here and there and that empty stomach? Leaving aside the situation at that moment, what if a boy would have asked you for a date and it got ruined the way you did? Wouldn't you judge him for his sickness, and for everything that happened far off your expectations? 
I am tired of these sarcastic situations in my life, even though I don't understand how to feel about things. 
It's okay not to feel anything sometimes, but this sometimes is stretching itself and I am letting it go with the flow, which would someday come out of me as a storm. 
The best part of today is that I allowed myself to even think of what is happening within and with me and I feel good that I could write some of my pieces into pieces here. After all, revealing a part of your life is what makes you an interesting person - just being the part is interesting for others too...

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  1. 22 sept15 August 2022 at 11:47

    Just leave yourself to flow and don't percieve any thing

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    1. Tanushka Singh20 August 2022 at 23:49

      Sometimes leaving yourself to flow may take to some directionless place, and then won't be able to find the way back home

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