OFF_TRACK

Rarely do I come to this place to spill out everything inside me. Don't remember the exact date, yet it's been months since I wrote something over here. Maybe I wasn't considering myself to express or to think about myself.  When I sit by myself, I either try to fix things or just let go of them. A lot of mess is happening in life, nothing that I feel will finally go good, goes the way. Maybe I am not manifesting or I have stopped believing in myself.  I do believe everything will be alright, what is lacking behind is the urge to do something to see the magic happening. It's nothing like I am suffering from something or what, it's just, that I am not feeling okay with how things are happening. It usually happens in two cases, one is when you give your best and don't get the results and the second is when you want the things to happen themselves to you, and which is just getting happy building castles in the air.  I have somewhere stuck between the two. Neither I...